Time is Running Out...

Soon it will be Christmas... 
And we have decided that we should start dating....
He asked me before.... not very romantically- over the phone? I mean honestly.... wow....after 4 months...and the best you can do is ask over a phone? 
So I am hoping that he'll do something at least when we see each other (new strategy...)
Sigh ... I dont know what to do if he doesn't do anything.... 
I mean... it feels so pointless if someone just goes..."so..you wanna be my girlfriend" oh jeee...how ...uberly romantic is that...right? 
I mean...so passion...no thought into it... I just...dont know what I'd do if he doesn't ask and assumes that because a partical day is coming up...and he says nothing! 
I think...that would be my last chance I give him...This is the last chance I give him... Honestly... I'm sick and fed up with keep giving guys another chance! 
F*** them. 
There is no point in apologizing if they keep doing it again-and you know... I really hope that they see the daylight when they realize what they had is GONE. 
UGH. 
I. HATE. HIM. 
for making me hating him .... gawd, this hypocritical side of him of being all smiles and cheers with "if your happy, im happy" and this bullsh*t of calling me "dear" I mean who the hell do you think you are? 
Sometimes just can't be fixed. 
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