So why do I feel sympathetic for what happened? Is it because he left messages that he wrote for 2 hours asking me to come back and that he will never leave. Was it because of his final words of Goodbye?
I ...dont know...
it seems as the more and more our conversation was coming to an end, he bagan to talk like the old him. The sincere and deep side that I haven't seen in so long.
... Was I wrong to say goodbye? Is it for the best?
Time can only tell...
I talked to the other guy last night- he was helping me out through this difficult time... He really helped me see past the bad and think about the positive and made me smile... but the positive to what?? I just said goodbye for good to someone i've know for a really long time...
Is it to his advantage that I will no longer be speaking and hearing someone who keeps saying those three words. Perhaps.
Does he sincerely mean that he wants to see me happy? Perhaps.
Was the angry friend right- do I really not believe in anyone anymore? Have I lost all trust in people?
Was he really right about me not being able to trust others.... be HONEST to them...and think HOW can I have a relationship if I never did it with the guy i've know for so long.
I have alot of reflecting to do ... about how things are going to work ..
Will I miss him? I really dont know... he's hurt me so bad...he said that I should still keep being his friend but if you think about it... I just can't tolerate it any longer. Even if he says thats how we should stay strong and that we keep honest with each other...but the thing is... you can keep honest with the person but when it comes to the point when you dont want to hear what they have to say, you really dont care and you are completely unhappy. Then what else is there too do? Its to the point where you want to latch to their throat ....
My belief... be around someone that doesn't make you want to bring out your bad side. Someone who will always try to make you happy...someone who will understand, take a breather during heated arguements... someone who will admit that they were wrong and try their best to make it up to you.
Sigh...things I've learnt and reasons why I can no longer be his friend...
1) I can't keep believing in something that was never there
2) Sick of being manipulated
3) Enough defending of myself and explaining modes of reasoning
4) Dont compromising
5) can't stand the world knowing
6) Hate the mind games
7) No more feel of being afraid
So yes...it is time to say Goodbye for good... we've shared some good times... can't keep dwelling in the past because then time goes by to fast...time to make new memory, give others a chance...and move on.
Chapters in life always end. Its time to close this one and live on a fresh start.
I have alot of reflecting to do ... about how things are going to work ..
Will I miss him? I really dont know... he's hurt me so bad...he said that I should still keep being his friend but if you think about it... I just can't tolerate it any longer. Even if he says thats how we should stay strong and that we keep honest with each other...but the thing is... you can keep honest with the person but when it comes to the point when you dont want to hear what they have to say, you really dont care and you are completely unhappy. Then what else is there too do? Its to the point where you want to latch to their throat ....
My belief... be around someone that doesn't make you want to bring out your bad side. Someone who will always try to make you happy...someone who will understand, take a breather during heated arguements... someone who will admit that they were wrong and try their best to make it up to you.
Sigh...things I've learnt and reasons why I can no longer be his friend...
1) I can't keep believing in something that was never there
2) Sick of being manipulated
3) Enough defending of myself and explaining modes of reasoning
4) Dont compromising
5) can't stand the world knowing
6) Hate the mind games
7) No more feel of being afraid
So yes...it is time to say Goodbye for good... we've shared some good times... can't keep dwelling in the past because then time goes by to fast...time to make new memory, give others a chance...and move on.
Chapters in life always end. Its time to close this one and live on a fresh start.
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